So, this time next week I will be holding my precious miracle. Crazy to think. It has defiantly been a crazy weekend. Emotions and hormones running crazy. Here is the story:
Friday I had been having small consistent contractions most of the day. Sara came over around 130 and we went to Conyers and did some shopping. While we were shopping I told Sara I thought I was having contractions they just weren't very strong. We then wrapped up shopping and headed back to my house to "walk them off". When I got home they got stronger than they had ever been. We then proceeded to call the Dr. She said we could come to the hospital and just see, or wait it out at home. I was in way to much pain to stay home..so we headed to Athens. To make a long story short we got there and I was still 2cm dilated but 70% effaced. We had made some progress. So we walked for two hours and then still no progress.She gave me some pain meds to help me relax and sleep to see if we would progress anymore.After 2 more hours, still NOTHING. When she told us I had made no more progress I was sooo upset. I just knew he was coming Friday/Saturday. Then to be let down, I was just crushed. So we packed up and headed home.
Then Saturday afternoon we went to the pool for a few hours and I swam my little tail off..and that brought on some more contractions. Afterwards my mom, Sara, and I went and got the dreaded Castor Oil and headed to the mall to walk. I took about 1 tbsp of the oil and mixed it in a shake. I didn't taste it at all. Then we walked for about 2 hours and nothing happened. Clay just knew that he was going to get a phone call saying " Her water broke..hurry up here". Obviously, he didn't. So we came back home and still nothing.
Sunday morning I had a few contractions but felt HORRIBLE. I guess I had wore myself out over the weekend. So here we sit Monday morning and nothing.
A lot of people have been very open about what they think about us trying to "rush" Gage. It hit me really hard and bad. I just felt like they were saying you are crazy...wait! We have waited waited and more waiting during the past 9+ months. We are over the waiting game. We know Gage is healthy and we are so ready for him to be here. Its almost like you go on the best vacation ever and talk about it for weeks,years. Then finally get the opportunity to take someone there and share the same experience. Then they understand why you love it so much and talked about it so much. That's how I feel with Gage. So many people have prayed for him and us.We are ready to show the world that God still works miracles. We are ready to show off our "20%". We have living proof of it all. I think every mother at 38+ weeks of pregnancy hits this stage. They will do almost anything to get the baby out to hold and love on.
Even as ready as I am to meet Gage and call him mine, I have so many mixed emotions. Clay and I have had several talks about US. In other words, we understand Gage is important and ours forever but OUR MARRIAGE COMES FIRST!!!!! When Gage grows up and moves away we will still have US. So many people these days get wrapped up in their kids and forget about their spouse. I am terrified of that. I think since we have a conscious thought about NOT doing that it wont happen. Its crazy to think that in 4 days we will have an addition to "Clay and Anna". We have been "Clay and Anna" for almost 8 years. Now it will be " Clay, Anna, and Gage!". What a thought. Never imagined seeing a good looking fireman at the bottom of the bleachers in 2004..falling in love with him..marrying him..and now starting our own family. WOAH!!! Where has the time went?!?
We go back to the Doctor today for our 38/39 week check up. We are seeing our favorite midwife today. The midwife we saw Friday night at the hospital is very by the book. She is all about letting nature do the work and so on. The one we are seeing today has had 3 kids and KNOWS what it is like to be this pregnant and ready to get things going. Hopefully we will have progressed enough to just head on to the hospital. :) If not then we will for sure be there Friday night. We are scheduled for the induction Friday night at 6pm. We have to be there between 530-545 and then will start everything at 6.
Thanks everyone for everything. We cant wait to show Baby Gage off. 4 more days!
-Anna
