Where in the world do I start? It's been forever since I posted last.
Sidenote: I am currently 31 weeks and 4 days.
Sunday, May 22nd marked two important dates. It made it one month since I have been a " Stay at home mom/ preparation to be one!" It also marked two months until my due date!!! The past month has been a up and down time in me and Clay's life. We had to take a huge leap of faith,and trust God to supply our needs, since we were dropping to one salary. At first, I'm not going to lie, it was scary. It was a huge adjustment. Not that I would go back and change it for anything. The first week that we just had Clay's salary to depend on..it was scary. It was the lowest his check had every been since we had been married. So, we just sat back and gave God our finances and trusted every one of them would be met. AND IT WAS ! This was the week that Clay told me I had $30 to spend at the grocery store. I said there is NO way that I can do that. Well, I hunted every coupon and sale that I could get my hands on. Sara and I went to Kroger..checked out and my total was $29.63. Thank you Jesus. It was a miracle. So God's been faithful. He has been so good to us..he has showed us that being faithful to him pays off. Also, the city has changed clays work schedule and he works 10 hours Mon-Thur and 8 hours on Friday. So its a lot of overtime. We decided to not look at the situation as " Oh my, that's a lot of work in the heat". We said Thank you Jesus for the extra money to save for Gage's furniture and other things we need. Since then God has also worked through Clay to be a testimony at work. A true blessing. God is still moving in that situation as well.
Ever since I have been home I go to Gage's room everyday to see if there is anything I can do in there. Hang up clothes, organize, vacuum, etc. Yesterday I walked in there and just lost it. AGAIN! Just realizing that in 8 weeks ( or less! ) our little miracle will be laying in that crib. I was talking to two of our teen girls from church Sunday night. One asked if we were getting excited about Gage coming. I told her yes, we are very excited. Then I told her that ever since we found out about Gage's hygroma that I had a new feeling come over me. She was kinda confused and I explained it to her. Jan 7 when the Doctor told us we only had a 20% chance of everything being OK..I realized that Gage was not mine. God gave Gage to Clay and I just to "borrow". He is a gift to us. He is God's masterpiece and his child. I said, I love this child so much, but God loves him so much more. I also told her that I just feel like I am carrying this child for another person. It hit me really hard that I only have Gage for a short while..compared to what God will have with him in eternity. She was kinda taken away by my story but it is so true. That's when I told Clay on the way home that " I hope I never get over God healing Baby Gage". It is something that we will always be able to share with Gage and others. That quote " God doesn't do miracles these days". I will have living proof of one!
So, we are less that 2 months from my due date. We are excited but also have that first parent nervousness. We have his room 85% ready . I still have some pictures to hang, and his name to paint above his bed. Also, we still have to order his dresser. My first shower is June 4th. Clay's sister and mom are throwing it. I am soo excited. We really don't have anything for him. A few outfits and a toy or two! THAT'S IT! So we are ready to have things so I can pack our bag for the hospital.
Thank you all for your continued prayers for my little family. I know Gage appreciates them too! I am feeling very pregnant these days. My sickness has hit pretty hard once or twice in the past week. Hopefully just a small fluke thing. HOPEFULLY!!!!!! Anyway. we love you guys and can't wait for you to meet our miracle!
Anna Parker
